Those Dang Ducks.

So I'm starting to realize that I am not very good at this whole blog thing. I read awesome blogs, a lot that are very inspiring and I think, "I want to do something like that. Speak to the world, writing down words that make people think." But I'm just not great at keeping up with this. I want it so badly though, so I'm trying harder.

Like I said before, I want my words to speak to people. And just writing that sentence, it's already hitting me that it's not going to happen without one factor: The big man upstairs. As much as I want people to be inspired, the inspiration shouldn't come from me. It should come from God. To have my words truly effect someone, they have to be God's words.

Dang. This is not the way I was going to write this post. It's crazy how God can teach you things through, well, yourself.

But back to the point. Plain and simple, we are nothing without God. Our words are not our words to own, they are the Creator of the Universe's. He knows every little thing that we have said, are saying, and will say. Crazy. To know that He has it all under control makes life so stress-free. And I can attest that I am one of the first people that need to hear this everyday. I want so bad to do everything myself, to put my own ducks in a row. But I have to start slowly letting that go and letting God. He has shown me so many times that my ducks are not suppose to be in the rows I put them in.

I have started wearing my old necklace that someone gave me. There is a little charm on it, a flat piece of round metal. On the front, there is a sun. And on the back there is a quote that says "Be the change you wish to see in the world." Yeah, cheese-fest quote, but I'm starting to take it to heart. The change I want to see in the world is more of us relying completely on God. Walking with Him everyday, in constant prayer. So, there it is. I know I won't be perfect at it, but I'm going to start trying harder at being that change.

Trying harder, because my God is worth it all.